Tuesday, September 20, 2011

on things that matter most.

sometimes i feel worlds away from loving and teaching and nurturing, from the mom i hope and am trying to be. 

sometimes the day to day... the day to day.
what doesn't kill us makes us stronger right?

last night at 10pm after putting kids to bed and picking up the house, i headed off to the closest 24 hr grocery store, oh such is life with little babes.
as i found myself in the first moment of quiet that day, i thought about my kids. the funny things olive says, her rambunctious behavior and crazy hair. i thought about harrison's sweet sweet face, chubby fingers and contagious laugh. how much i love them and wish the world for them.
i was exhausted, but i felt grateful.

as i played back the scenes of my very average day, all of a sudden making dinner one handed with a baby on my hip and one at my feet didn't seem so bad. vacuuming for twice as long as normal because olive wants a turn isn't the end of the world. if i don't get everything done on my list, it's okay. that list will be there tomorrow, and maybe the things on that list aren't that important anyway. 

maybe there is a little girl to dance with and a baby boy to feed pickles to.

4 comments:

robin said...

so sweet.

i feel CRAZY all the time, so thanks for this sweet little reminder that it's all going to be okay...

MiShelle said...

Ah, I love ya. It does seems so hard some days, doesn't it? But I agree...sometimes you just need to be reminded. Thanks:)

lara said...

that's sweet, andi...you are an excellent mom. i saw you in action! i hope to be half the mom you are one day.

aubry. said...

i want to eat a pickle. with harrison, preferably.